A Little Perspective
Today marks one week since my ambulance ride. I have makeup on today and made my bed for the first time since I've been home. Now that's true progress.
This week of being at home, on my couch, watching other people be me has given me a lot of perspective. It's really been a gift in some ways. I've been able to view my children in their home environment and reevaluate my own priorities. Hopefully by next week Tuesday I'll be at 100% again (or what 100% looks like for a woman who is going to give birth in 8 weeks). I'm reworking my whole day and only doing things that matter. Also, there is no shame in saying, " I can't do it all myself." I'm a firstborn which means I'm fiercely independent and a perfectionist. Translation; I can do it all, and nobody can do it as well as me so I better do it all myself. Turns out, things get done just fine when I ask for help and I'm a ton more relaxed when I don't feel the weight of everything on my shoulders.
I think I've gotten a taste for what those first 4 or so weeks are going to be like with a 4th child at home. It's not going to be easy but oh, I can't wait to see and hold my little girl! Thank God my parents will be here to help shoulder some of the load. I'm also excited for someone else to get a chance to hold her since I've been selfishly doing the job for the last 31 weeks or so.
Ethan's circumcision reconstruction will be Wed of next week. Thank God my in-laws will be here to help shoulder some of that load and to be around while I still recover from this nasty cold.
As I think about the next few weeks, I thank God for this verse:
"He will gather the lambs with His arm, and carry them in His bosom, and gently lead those who are with young." Isaiah 40:11
Sheryl Bane
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As a fellow first born, I'm nodding my head and can so relate. We babysat my 2 month old neice last night, so we got a taste of what 4 kids (with essentially 2 babies) would feel like. I have to say, it wasn't as hard as I had envisioned, but to say that you're doing nothing but KIDS is sure an understatement!
It's coming so soon, I'm praying for your health and peace. That you can know that God put these people in your life so you would not have to shoulder everything alone. You're doing great.
Glad to hear you are recovering though! Enjoy the help you get and treasure those last moments with 'only' 3 children ;).
take care
I'm the baby of two, but I can so relate to what you say about getting things done and doing it on my own (my bother and I are 5 years apart, so we both have a lot of oldest/only child tendencies). As I'm chasing an 18 month old and getting down to the last few weeks of this pregnancy, I'm realizing that I, too, have to pick and choose what I get done (sometimes nesting is a curse); in fact, I've gotten in trouble with hubby a couple of times this week for doing too much.
All that to say that you aren't alone. And thanks for sharing the verse from Isaiah.
Glad to read you are really on the mend and that there is more help on the way!
Glad to hear you are chugging along...
Lori
Have a great week!
Happi