I’m thinking of quitting, nursing that is. Well, I’m tempted anyway. Aisling, my dear precious little daughter has a severe case of the crying and screaming and make you wanna pull your hair out. All. The. Time. She is getting more aware of us at all the time. She’s smiling at us, which I think is awesome since she’s only 2 1/2 weeks old. But I’m afraid she’s got what pediatricians like to call “colic”. I’ve taken dairy out of my diet and it doesn’t seem to have helped. I’ve been trying to think of what else I could cut out of my diet but I’m at a loss. I’ve gotten the gripe water, it seems to help a little. I’m drinking my Mammas Milk Tea with fennel in it. Can’t tell a difference.
The thing is, I’ve been through this before. Ben (my 1st son) had colic something awful. At three weeks I started using formula as well as nursing cuz I didn’t know what else to do. By 6 months he had completely weaned himself from me and a few weeks later Luke (my 2nd son) was on the way. But I don’t remember his colic stopping and him sleeping through the night until he was about 4 months old.
I have to say that it never entered my mind that I might have another baby like Ben. Luke and Ethan (son # 3) were such dream babies. I mean DREAM babies. There were the kind of babies that you dream of when you are a kid. Scott and I just assumed that Ben was a difficult baby because we were such sucky parents to him. But as it turns out, maybe that wasn’t it.
So anyway. when she is crying so hard and I am so frazzled and tired, my back hurts etc, I start thinking about that can of Similac that I have in the cabinet. Dear sweet Similac sent me in the mail. I think maybe in the long run I’ll be glad if I stick it out. But what if she doesn’t get better soon? Can I really keep this up? I’m so tired. Tonight I was unable to give Ethan the attention he wanted because I was trying to soothe Aisling who was on a 2 1/2 hour crying kick. Usually when I see babies who are bottle fed I feel sorry for them. I know that nursing is SO much better for babies but isn’t a sane mommy even better? I can do this. I CAN do this. This is not my first child, I know that there is an end to all of this crying…